Oh where do I even begin!? A little over a week ago, I started my new job at the post office. And the training is probably the single most stressful task I have ever had to do. Yet, it shouldn't be so hard, I'm just a freaking basket case! It's a self paced computer course that has you go through lessons with practice and then test. Sounds easy right? Well technically it should be, but the pressure of my job on the line (if I don't pass training I can't work there) plus a million other things has led me to a nervous breakdown. I have 2 days left to complete my training, and I'm really close, I'm just really stuck on the last several. Argh! My boyfriend and I work together now, but he, being a carefree boy and all, got through the training just fine, which makes me feel even more inadequate! (Nothing you did baby, I'm so proud of you!, just worried about myself!
I'm generally a nervous person anyway, but I don't think I have ever had this much anxiety. Its awful. I'm having constant anxiety. It's hard to breathe my body goes numb and sometimes trembles, every muscle in my body aches, and I get weird random pains that scare me so then I get even more stressed out. The lack of sleep due to me trying to adjust to my new upcoming schedule(graveyards) is definitely a big part of this as well. And on top of all of that, school is being such a pain in the butt lately. In math the teacher just keeps adding huge assignments so I have 2 huge things due in that class next week, my giant assessment paper due for science, and I still have not finished my hours or taught my lessons! Its all starting to feel impossible! There are so many more things, but I will write more later. I need sleep. Thanks for listening to my rant.
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